I have posted in the past about both my issues and my happiness. Today is another one of those posts. Here it goes… I feel sometimes like I have a curse because I am an introvert and I have a mental health diagnosis, a few actually and not to mention just other issues on top of it and so I struggle a lot, more than I’d like to admit. But of course there are times where I feel like I am thriving. That is the goal for some people I guess especially ones with mental health challenges. To live as normal as a life as possible. My life seemed normal a couple years ago but now the life I live also seems normal it’s weird how normal can be one thing one day and something completely different another day. I still struggle and life gets in the way issues come up mental health stuff mostly. The way I view the world and challenges just seems different than most people and so I end up having a lot of conflicts with how I perceive things I guess, not everyone agrees with me of course and then I get defensive and I have issues with that. But I also have a gift I can just sit there and listen to somebody and just know what they are really trying to express even if they really aren’t finding the right words and that has helped me tremendously in my job. But it hurts in my personal life as well because sometimes people say the nice thing and that’s not what they’re thinking and then other times I mean people sometimes say things out of anger but they really don’t mean it and those are some nicer times because I really I understand and I can sympathize easier with someone who is being angry but doesn’t really mean it then somebody who’s just telling me what I want to hear.
So, in the end, I am an empathic introvert with a mental illness.
Society caters to extroverts and there’s still that mental illness stigma. I haven’t decided yet whether the empathic part is accepted yet or not. Society wants to label everything and put poeple and things inside little boxes and protect everyone from things different from themselves. We need variety to grow and change. We need different opinions. We need to sit with each other and hear about the struggles and strengths in each other’s lives. Build upon each other in so many ways. I know I love it when I am around certain extroverts they rub off on me a bit. And I feel braver, and it def increases my self esteem.
So all in all I have struggles but I still have talents to offer society no matter my “labels”.