Endless 

Right now there is so much in my mind that this post may seem endless. First off I recently came into a situation that I don’t want to be in. I am basically being blamed for something I did not do and feel like I lost a friend. I’m kinda getting the impression I was “framed” actually. I mean I have perception issues sometimes but this doesn’t seem far off. My theory is it’s who you least expect! 

And then there’s my new medication. Stomach pain is an understatement. This medicine is pretty serious, something new to me, have not been on something this serious in quite a number of years. It is the ONLY one I am on right now. It’s so intense that there are like 40-50 interactions… Plus you HAVE to eat at least 350 calories with it. I have struggled with that. I am on a lower than recommended starting dose because of my sensitivity to meds, and it still sucks. If this stomach thing is temporary then I guess I  can wait it out but if there is no hope for this to leave I need something different. That is why I am up, stomach pain. The first couple days I chocked it up to anxiety about what was going on. But yesterday I skipped my dose (didn’t want to eat) and I was FINE all day! So it’s the med. 

I know I have not shared my most personal stuff here but today was a mostly good day. Made a little trip to see someone I don’t get to see everyday anymore. Drive felt good, visit turned into a “hot date” as hot as it could have gotten anyway… lol. Even though when I posted earlier on my Tumblr about a hot date I was being completely sarcastic! But hey, law of attraction right!? 🙂 

Slacking in some of my home responsibilities again. Mostly laundry and kitchen stuff. Bathroom could use a cleaning too. Being the only adult in a house with a child that makes more messes then you can handle then having depression/anxiety on top of that sucks! Doesn’t help that I have so much stuff! 

Conundrum… 

I am on a debt free journey… 

my debt is just under $12k and my husbands is $16k. I have followed Dave Ramsey on/off for a few years. I am at the point where anything worth selling is gone. I have tried so hard to sell clothes, books, misc. craft items. No luck, my thought is if I just donate it and get it out of my house 1. Will I regret not having that money?  2. How long is too long to hang onto stuff that is no longer needed? I have children’s clothes, and so much other stuff, and as much as I’d like to give back on a small scale (local, families, etc.) I just want to pack it all in my car and bring it to work (I work for Goodwill). Just to have it all done and over with. Plus there are some craft supplies that I probably won’t ever use but can’t bear to part with yet! That’s another whole post on its own…. lol 

See endless, tired of reading yet? 

In the end, I am feeling okay in my head. There is some anger towards the blaming situation, there hope for the future of my family, guess I feel good about venting all my thoughts. I hope today turns into  pretty awesome day. 

Ileave you with some law of attraction intention setting 🙂 

It is my intention to only have positive interaction and bring people that care about me into my experience. I have positive thoughts and those things will manifest into my experience as I relax into allowing. 

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